Me, Myself and I

“Sometimes the only means of transportation is a leap of faith”

Hi, I’m Ellie- welcome to my blog!

I wasn’t sure what to write here- in a nutshell, I am in my mid-20’s and have had anorexia since I was 12. I have spent most of the time since then in hospital, but now see myself more in a transitional period of healing and growth. This blog is about my journey through the maze I find myself in- the pit holes, the quick sand, the lows and of course, the moments of clarity and freedom which give me hope and strength. This is my journey towards a life free from the chains that anorexia bound me with…

The name of my blog refers to my passion for dancing- I started when I was 19 and fell in love after my first class. I frequented the studio and threw myself into a mixture of street, hip-hop, jazz and breakdancing. It was the first time I apprecciated my body for the amazing things it was capable of rather than seeing it as something I wanted to destroy. It was a form of expression and communication for me, as well as a great stress reliever and creative outlet. I was diagnosed with mild osteoporosis when I was 20, and continued dancing. I had a second bone scan when I was 23 and at that point, had to stop dancing altogether. I miss it a lot at times, but accept that physical activities need to be limited and I am now finding other ways to express myself. Writing is one of them.

On a slightly lighter note, a random quiz I did on Facebook!

I give you money and send you into the grocery store to pick up 5 items. You can only pick one thing from the following departments.. what is it?
1. Produce: broccoli
2. Bakery: wholewheat wraps
3. Protein: tofu “chicken” salad

4. Frozen: amy’s burritos
5. Dry goods: oats

Let’s say we’re heading out for a weekend getaway. You’re only allowed to bring 3 articles of clothing with you. So, what’s in your bag? * assume you can take the undergarments too*
1. hooded sweatshirt
2. t-shirt with a funky slogan on it
3. jeans

If I was to listen in on one of your conversations throughout the day, what 5 phrases or words would I be most likely to hear?
1. “oops!”
2. “how did I not see this coming?!”
3. “so there was this time…”
4. “I have a really uncool idea!”
5. “are you kidding me?”

So, what 3 things do you find yourself doing every single day, and if you didn’t get to do, you probably wouldn’t be in the best mood?
1. Sleep

2. Eat
3. Go to the bathroom

Sweet, you just scored a whole afternoon to yourself. We’re talking a 3 hour block with nobody around. What 5 activities might we find you doing?
1. Internet
2. Drinking coffee
3. Long hot shower
4. Cooking
5. Grocery shopping

We’re going to the zoo. But, it looks like it could start storming, so it’ll have to be a quick visit. What 3 exhibits do we have to get to?
1. gift shop
2. coffee shop
3. exit

(not a zoo person! )

You just scored tickets to the taping of any show that comes on t.v. of your choice. You can pick between 4, so what are you deciding between?
1. QI
2. Mock The Week
3. Scrubs
4. 8 Out Of 10 Cats

Somebody stole your purse/wallet…in order to get it back, you have to name 5 things you know are inside to claim it. So, what’s in there?
1. buss pass
2. iPod
3. pens

4. expired dance membership card
5. random business cards from temp agencies in New York

You are at a job fair, and asked what areas you are interested in pursuing a career in. Let’s pretend you have every talent and ability to be whatever you wanted, so what 4 careers would be fun for you?
1. Copywriter
2. Copywriter
3. Nutritionist
4. Copywriter

 

It is Wednesday afternoon, where are you usually?
in front of a computer, drinking coffee and eating granola mixed with yogurt

Do you miss your past?
Some parts, yes

Do you ever think “what if”?
Of course

Favorite Beverage?
diet cream soda

Favorite Board Game?
Cranium

What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?
walked towards my bed

Favorite lyrics right now?
“Take The Chance” (Peter, Paul and Mary)